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Tuesday, October 02, 2001

There will never be another you.

i haven't felt like this in so long. i haven't missed him in ages. i walked away never to look back. but right now i can feel him and smell him, it's killing me. but it's not a hurt like an ache, like i usually feel, it's more like short, quick, stabbing pains. like the memories coming back one by one to stick themselves into my flesh. he was so perfect at that time. everything i wanted in another person. so beautiful and amzingly passionate. i always told him i loved his passion. is it possible i will never love someone again the way i loved him? it was never easy. but always exciting. sometimes i wanted to die inside. sometimes i felt every breath, every movement 100 times stronger cos he was there. he's what i could never have. and have always wanted. do i still love him? yeah, i do. i love that he doesnt wear shoes or socks, that he eats toast, i love that he can't hold hands right, i love that he has so much talent and no ambition. would i ever want to be with him? nope. he has too much baggage. plus he'd never hurt me again. i wouldn't let him. but i'd still love to curl up next to him. or spend hours talking to him. but not who he is now...who he was. the tourtured, hopeful, passionate spirit that i thought as long as i believed in would never die...

-Sarah K. Steck

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